Struggling with Depression

I am taking a break from writing about fun stuff like failed relationships, RVing, reality TV and my hatred of the Pittsburgh Penguins. I’m going to discuss my life a bit and a one-time battle I had with what I figure is depression. I’m going to tell you what I believed triggered it, what happened while I was fully into it and what got me out of it.

I had a telephone discussion with an ex. Mistake because she blames me leaving her for the misery she finds herself in these days. In fact, she finds great pleasure in letting me know all the crap she’s been through is not a result of her refusal to work full time like us savages, but due to the lack of support I gave her. Ok. Normally that wouldn’t ¬†bother me, but this session was different. She blamed me for her not having any children. She told me she wanted to have three children and now she’s too old to have any (she is).

That made me feel bad. Then I thought sticking around her essentially ended my family line. She didn’t say so, but getting pregnant would have been difficult for her. And the fact of the matter is if she truly wanted to have a kid, we would have. Bottom line, you generally start kids with intercourse, and we weren’t having it. At least not with each other.

Anyway, I thought more about it until I could barely do anything. I would go to work, come home and get right into bed. I would lay there and let these “waves of blue” crash into me. Only after talking to a friend did I realize what was happening. She suggested I go see a therapist, which I did not. I was barely functioning but hardly anyone knew.

What got me through it? My cats. I did not always like cats. In fact, I never wanted to be around them. My cats took care of me. One of our cats would curl up next to me while I was in the fetal position. He would sleep next to me and purr. Our other cat, the anti social one, soon became much more friendly. Before long, both of them would come upstairs, get next to me and purr while my life was going into the tank.

Thats why I’m going to cry like a baby when my cats go. I really really owe them.

What snapped me out? Nothing in particular except a desire to get out of the pity party. I did. It was time to stop feeling sorry for myself and start doing something.

Not everyone can do that. Hardly anyone can do that. It’s very hard. Depression is a mo—- f—-r. It can hurt you badly.

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Wilbon Speaks Undeniable Truths

Ya’ll know I can’t stand Wilbon. In fact, his Chicago homerism inspired our “homerism” tag on this blog, along with use of the word “toadyism.” Today, I turned on PTI then the batteries died in the remote. So I’m trying to find how to change the channel, and here’s Wilbon jabbering away with Kornheiser.

I could find little fault, hard as I tried with Wilbon’s comments. Here are the following:

– It was a hold, Chiefs. That includes you Travis Kelce, stop making excuses

– Cowboys fan has to be devastated (not a bad thing in the eyes of this blog)

– Aaron Rodgers is the man; Tom Brady is the MVP but that’s a regular season award

– If you are Tomlin, you want to do something with Antonio Brown for being a locker room rat, but you can’t. Brown is your second best player.

– Shut up, Seahawks. You’re not good anymore

– Cavs – Warriors don’t play enough to be a rivalry

Wilbon is still a Chicago homer, but these assessments are spot on.

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Mike Tomlin’s Postgame Speech

Did you, like everyone did, Antonio Brown capturing Mike Tomlin calling the New England Patriots “assholes?”
That makes me laugh.

Another thing that made me laugh was sports media’s outrage at the various comments. 

Hell, everyone in the AFC calls the Patriots assholes. Mostly because they have dominated the conference for the past 15 years. The Baltimore Ravens brought up deflated footballs to the Indianapolis Colts. The Jets constantly gun for the Patriots through their media supporters and the NFL front office. The Broncos sign players who used to play for New England in their efforts to topple them. The Raiders will detest them forever due to Tuck Rule. The Chargers were probably the best team on two occasions where they lost in the AFC playoffs. And now, here are the Steelers, a team stopped at least twice enroute to the Super Bowl by New England.

The Patriots are assholes. Really, really good assholes. Get used to it, along with them winning. Get used to people hating them, a lot.

By the way, the Patriots are in the AFC championship game for the 6th time in a row. In their previous 5 times, they have gone on to win the Super Bowl once. 

Winning Super Bowls is really, really hard.

And BSP isn’t even going into the realm of Antonio Brown videotaping in the locker room. That whole thing gets into Rat Hall of Fame territory.

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Houston at New England

Isn’t it difficult to believe? It’s the 4th quarter of an NFL Divisional Playoff and the Texans actually have a chance to do something at New England. It’s 24-16 and … Brock Osweiller just threw a pick. New England now has the ball inside the Texans 20.

Now New England just punched it in, and it’s 31-16.

Do you think Houston can score 32 points on the road?

Me neither. 12:16 left and Houston needs a pair of touchdowns. Time to play with the grandson.

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Clemson vs Alabama

Wow. 1 second left. Clutch. Congrats to Desean Watson, Hunter Renfrow and the Clemson Tigers.

Alabama is a great team, but it’s extremely difficult to beat elite teams 2 times in a row.

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Please Help Us, Mr. Official

Watching Michigan and Florida State here in the Orange Bowl.

Michigan is completely overmatched from a physical standpoint, but fortunately they have the officiating crew to help keep the game close.

And I like Michigan!

Michigan needs a short field to score. Their running game is dead. So the officials gave the Wolverines a break or five. Now, Michigan scored to take the lead.

Add in the fact Steve Levy and Brian Griese are calling this game; they are so biased towards Michigan … not that the former Michigan quarterback would be biased towards Michigan?

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Next Time, Pick a Better Role Model

Was just watching some WWE tonight. Saw a woman by the name of Nia Jax totally destroy a woman named Scarlett making her debut on Raw. Scarlett claimed Sasha Banks was her role model.

What, you thought I’d be watching the Cowboys? Guess again.

Anyway, this woman, Nia Jax just mauled this woman, this little woman, from the start of the match. It looked like Kalichi Ossemele just shove around a defensive lineman from a team to remain unnamed. At the end of the match, Jax shoved Scarlett’s pretty little face into the mat. She then took the mike and stated:

“Next time, pick a better role model.”

I haven’t laughed that hard since last night, when Al Michaels said how bad the niners were.

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Denver at Kansas City: The Main Enemy vs The Other Main Enemy

Watching the Broncos and the Chiefs tonight on Sunday Night Football.

As much as I dislike the Broncos, Raiders need them to win tonight. Naturally, the Broncos decided not to show up, even if they need to win in order to reach the playoffs. The Chiefs? They make great plays against the Broncos and I cheer for them, even though I want them to lose. At least they are a class organization. Andy Reid also prepares them for every opponent they play; if you want to see how to beat a team, watch the Chiefs play them.

It’s 21-10 Chiefs late in the 3rd quarter right now. Watching this as a football fan, I’m thinking this game is over. Denver’s offense is awful. They aren’t helping the team. They lack pace. Every play takes a long time to start, then develop. That’s when things like false starts and plays getting killed in the backfield happen. If I were Denver, I’d like to see them go into a no-huddle, just to get some pace going. They aren’t helping their quarterback at all.

In fact, if I were the Broncos, which I definitely am not, I’d consider firing Gary Kubiak. Unfortunately, I think Elway might lean this way too. Kubiak is supposed to be an offensive guru but his offense has in order, made Peyton Manning, Brock Osweiller, Trevor Siemien and Paxton Lynch look like garbage. The defense has kept Denver competitive. It’s kind of like Brian Billick at Baltimore when he was hired as this offensive guru but the offense¬† looked like trash. Why have an offensive guru there if you can’t score? Sports media talks like Tony Romo wants to go to Denver. Why? So he can run bootlegs and get killed?

Not saying Wade Phillips is the answer either; seasons 1 and 2 are typically very good for his defenses; season 3 is the expiration date. I’d love that guy to have some talent and running my team’s defense in year 1; we’d be a legitimate Super Bowl threat.

Next Sunday, the Raiders will have Matt McGloin going against the Broncos. I still think the Raiders have a chance in that game, despite losing Derek Carr. The Broncos offense is just terrible at this point in time, and if this game goes like it’s going, they’ll have only pride to play for this season.

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