Struggling with Depression

I am taking a break from writing about fun stuff like failed relationships, RVing, reality TV and my hatred of the Pittsburgh Penguins. I’m going to discuss my life a bit and a one-time battle I had with what I figure is depression. I’m going to tell you what I believed triggered it, what happened while I was fully into it and what got me out of it.

I had a telephone discussion with an ex. Mistake because she blames me leaving her for the misery she finds herself in these days. In fact, she finds great pleasure in letting me know all the crap she’s been through is not a result of her refusal to work full time like us savages, but due to the lack of support I gave her. Ok. Normally that wouldn’t ┬ábother me, but this session was different. She blamed me for her not having any children. She told me she wanted to have three children and now she’s too old to have any (she is).

That made me feel bad. Then I thought sticking around her essentially ended my family line. She didn’t say so, but getting pregnant would have been difficult for her. And the fact of the matter is if she truly wanted to have a kid, we would have. Bottom line, you generally start kids with intercourse, and we weren’t having it. At least not with each other.

Anyway, I thought more about it until I could barely do anything. I would go to work, come home and get right into bed. I would lay there and let these “waves of blue” crash into me. Only after talking to a friend did I realize what was happening. She suggested I go see a therapist, which I did not. I was barely functioning but hardly anyone knew.

What got me through it? My cats. I did not always like cats. In fact, I never wanted to be around them. My cats took care of me. One of our cats would curl up next to me while I was in the fetal position. He would sleep next to me and purr. Our other cat, the anti social one, soon became much more friendly. Before long, both of them would come upstairs, get next to me and purr while my life was going into the tank.

Thats why I’m going to cry like a baby when my cats go. I really really owe them.

What snapped me out? Nothing in particular except a desire to get out of the pity party. I did. It was time to stop feeling sorry for myself and start doing something.

Not everyone can do that. Hardly anyone can do that. It’s very hard. Depression is a mo—- f—-r. It can hurt you badly.

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Super Bowl 51, aka Biggest Fail Ever

Saw the game, it was terrific. I wanted Atlanta to win, but thoroughly enjoyed New England’s comeback/Atlanta’s collapse. Having been there for numerous team collapses, I enjoy a good collapse when I have nothing invested in it.

I’ve seen one poster on one site describing why Atlanta lost that game. It’s actually quite easy. Atlanta didn’t want to win; they wanted to DESTROY the Patriots. That’s why they were taking a 7-step drop with the score 28-3. It’s why, when they only needed a field goal to make it an 11-point game with 3 minutes left, they were still trying to throw. That resulted in sacks, penalties and a nearly unmatchable loss. According to ESPN, it could be the Worst Loss in NFL History.

Offensive coordinators are aggressive and arrogant. Kyle Shanahan thought the way to win was through trusting Matt Ryan, who despite his MVP numbers had shown no sign of being trustworthy. Ultimately, he didn’t believe in his running game. And he certainly didn’t help his defense, which had been out on the field too long.

I’m not sure Kyle Shanahan would have been to return to Atlanta if he had not been hired by the niners. In fact, I’m not sure I’d want to hire Shanahan after this fiasco. This is worse than the Oilers disaster against the Bills. That was only a playoff game. Super Bowl 51 was a global spectacle in front of 110 million people. #Falconing is now a Twitter word. It means grabbing oneself around the throats and squeezing until unconscious. This loss is going to follow Shanahan around for life. If he wins a Super Bowl, so what? You blew your first one. He wins 3 Super Bowls? Ok, but he still coached the Worst Loss in NFL History. It will never go away.

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Super Bowl 51

You want to know who’s going to win this game, don’t you?

I was thinking it’s going to be New England, because everything tells me they are the better team.

I’m getting the familiar “feel.” The feel says you have momentum on your side. I have no feel for this one.

BSP is going to go with the feel. Atlanta in an upset. We may be on the verge of the end of the Brady era. That of course means the Patriots will rout the Falcons, but the feel of this one says it won’t even be close.

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Jerry Jones in the Pro Football Hall of Fame

That’s right. He made it. Not into the talking Hall of Fame but the professional football Hall of Fame. Likely due to the Dallas Morning News and relentless ass kissing on their part.

You may all laugh out loud. 

Who’s next, the 12th man making it?  A Jets fan? Seriously, what kind of kiss asses are on the Hall of Fame committee? You know the only reason the guy was even considered for it was because he’s a blabbermouth. It sure as hell isnt because of his team’s on the field success over say, the last 20 years.

An embarrassment to the sport. What a coincidence, NFL ratings start to slip and TV ratings are the ONLY reason this guy should get in the Hall of Fame without a ticket.

We may have to introduce another blog category. “Jerry Jonesing”, for extreme asskissing.

I’m looking forward to Skip Bayless’ nomination. Lol, lmao. LMFAO.

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The Greatest Quarterback of All Time

We have been hearing how Tom Brady may be the greatest quarterback of all time. There are many factors that play into this. For example, Brady has a chance to win his 5th Super Bowl title, in seven appearances. He’s going strong after 16 years in the league. He’s been unstoppable except against Tom Coughlin’s Giants, and to a lesser degree, the Denver Broncos. Brady has won consistently across the years, with, other than Randy Moss and Rob Gronkowski, a collection of below par receivers.

BSP as always looks back into history. We believe the greatest QB of all time is “Automatic” Otto Graham. Graham won his league’s championship 7 out of 10 tries. He played in his league’s title game 10 consecutive years. He set some records that still stand today, like highest yards per average attempt. Pro football was a different sport back then. A quarterback was one out of 11 players on the field, not someone who got a special level of protection. There were no “Graham rules.”

On top of that, Graham also won a title playing professional basketball, one of only two players to win a title in two different professional sports. Too bad, Deion Sanders.

There are a few players who stood out back then, players before their time. Don Hutson, the receiver who caught more touchdown passes some seasons than entire NFL teams. Of course, Jim Brown before he became an elderly kook who hates on civil rights activists.

Tom Brady? The greatest quarterback of the Super Bowl era. Certainly the greatest one I’ve seen play, except he can be judged as something of a system QB. After all, Matt Cassel won in New England, and Jimmy Garapolo showed signs of success there. Here at BSP, we like Tom Brady, despite winning a title as a result of one of the top 10 most horrific calls of all time. In our tradition of happiness through bitterness, he’s kept the Broncos from winning multiple titles. We might even run out a Super Bowl prediction today.

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This is awesome programming

Watching Steve Wilkos’ show from Thursday. Megan, the mother confessed to police that she tried to smother her 2-year old child. She then recanted her story and has gone on Steve Wilkos’ show to prove her innocence. As we know at BSP HQ, that’s a bad recipe. That’s a thing that lands guests in prison.


Megan spends her time on stage yelling at the child’s father, who has apparently left her. The dude just says “she did it.” Uh oh.

After Wilkos reads the polygraph results, which tell us Megan is guilty as hell of abusing her child, she goes screaming off the stage. She’s wailing while Steve tells the father Megan is a piece of crap. Megan is making too much noise back there, so Steve leaves the stage to throw Megan out of the studio. Steve tells her she’s a terrible mother and she’s going to jail. No she’s not. She’s going to prison.

There is a difference between jail and prison. Jail >>>> prison.  Jail is where you go after you get caught drunk driving. Someone inevitably goes to bail you out. Prison is where you go after you get convicted and sentenced for vehicular manslaugher.  The state decides when it’s time for you to leave.

Sometimes I’m amazed Wilkos can take the results of his show, even though he’s a cop. I get a laugh out of people thinking they can beat the polygraph; I’ve had multiple polygraphs and unless you’re a complete psychopath, it’s not happening. Steve Wilkos represents excellent programming because he has an unending stream of guests coming to his show. There’s an unending stream of people with screwed up lives who just want to put it on the air.

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Wilbon Speaks Undeniable Truths

Ya’ll know I can’t stand Wilbon. In fact, his Chicago homerism inspired our “homerism” tag on this blog, along with use of the word “toadyism.” Today, I turned on PTI then the batteries died in the remote. So I’m trying to find how to change the channel, and here’s Wilbon jabbering away with Kornheiser.

I could find little fault, hard as I tried with Wilbon’s comments. Here are the following:

– It was a hold, Chiefs. That includes you Travis Kelce, stop making excuses

– Cowboys fan has to be devastated (not a bad thing in the eyes of this blog)

– Aaron Rodgers is the man; Tom Brady is the MVP but that’s a regular season award

– If you are Tomlin, you want to do something with Antonio Brown for being a locker room rat, but you can’t. Brown is your second best player.

– Shut up, Seahawks. You’re not good anymore

– Cavs – Warriors don’t play enough to be a rivalry

Wilbon is still a Chicago homer, but these assessments are spot on.

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Mike Tomlin’s Postgame Speech

Did you, like everyone did, Antonio Brown capturing Mike Tomlin calling the New England Patriots “assholes?”

http://deadspin.com/antonio-brown-livestreams-mike-tomlin-calling-the-patri-1791251582
That makes me laugh.

Another thing that made me laugh was sports media’s outrage at the various comments. 

Hell, everyone in the AFC calls the Patriots assholes. Mostly because they have dominated the conference for the past 15 years. The Baltimore Ravens brought up deflated footballs to the Indianapolis Colts. The Jets constantly gun for the Patriots through their media supporters and the NFL front office. The Broncos sign players who used to play for New England in their efforts to topple them. The Raiders will detest them forever due to Tuck Rule. The Chargers were probably the best team on two occasions where they lost in the AFC playoffs. And now, here are the Steelers, a team stopped at least twice enroute to the Super Bowl by New England.

The Patriots are assholes. Really, really good assholes. Get used to it, along with them winning. Get used to people hating them, a lot.

By the way, the Patriots are in the AFC championship game for the 6th time in a row. In their previous 5 times, they have gone on to win the Super Bowl once. 

Winning Super Bowls is really, really hard.

And BSP isn’t even going into the realm of Antonio Brown videotaping in the locker room. That whole thing gets into Rat Hall of Fame territory.

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